tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14105990775914496702024-03-15T19:09:53.931-06:00Widow ChickGrief management through humor and coping using the power of positive thinking.Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.comBlogger297125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-20871696861075540912016-09-14T10:19:00.001-06:002016-09-14T10:19:14.740-06:00Chapter One: Wish You Were Here <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><span style="line-height: 200%;">My
inspiration for this book came from a question I still ask myself and
one that many widows have asked me throughout the years:</span></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="line-height: 200%;"><b>"I wonder what my husband would think about what I'm doing?'</b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="line-height: 200%;"> <i> </i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="line-height: 200%;"><i>Thanks to Henry, my unfortunate husband who passes away in this book, we find out </i>exactly <i>what a husband might be thinking about what his widowed wife, Jane, is doing. </i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="line-height: 200%;"><i>Yikes.</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="line-height: 200%;"><i>I hope you enjoy this first chapter of </i>Wish You Were Here. <i>Any comments on the <a href="https://www.facebook.com/CatherineMoutonTidd/" target="_blank">Catherine Tidd author Facebook page</a>, <a href="https://www.facebook.com/WidowChick/" target="_blank">Widow Chick Facebook page</a>,
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><u>CHAPTER ONE </u></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“No,
no, no…you don’t understand,” I said impatiently to the customer service woman
who said she was stationed in Connecticut, but who I suspected was actually in India.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I know that my husband’s name is on the
account, but I need to get that changed.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Well,
since it’s your husband’s name on the account, we’ll have to speak to him about
it,” said Nancy </span><span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif";">Bhatnagar
with forced patience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“He is the only
one who has authorization to change it.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I’ve
told you and the three other people I talked to before you,” I said, feeling
the blood rush to my face and the entire upper part of my body heat up in some
sort of customer service-induced hot flash.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>“You can’t talk to my husband.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He
died six months ago.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I
understand that ma’am,” said Nancy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“But
he’s the name on the account so if any changes need to be made, we’ll have to
have him do it.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Well,
how do you suggest we do that?” I asked, my voice low and shaking with anger.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Dig him up?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Pardon?”
</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">How can he give his permission to change the
account into my name if he’s dead?”</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Well,
I’m not sure.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Okay,
fine.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I said, suddenly coming up with
an idea.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Let’s just cancel the
account.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Cancel the phone, the cable, and
the internet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then let’s hook them back
up in my name and I’ll finally have <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">my </i>name
on the caller-ID so I can stop giving everyone a heart attack when I call them
and they see his name flash across their phone.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“That
would be fine,” said Nancy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Great!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What do we need to do?”<br />
<span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“Well, first I need his
authorization to cancel the account.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">I
sat in my cubicle, staring at the phone in my hand for a solid two minutes,
hearing the faraway voice of Nancy saying, “Ma’am?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Ma’am?” from the receiver.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could feel my office mates trying hard not
to look at me, but I knew they were wondering if this was it, if I was finally
going to blow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If the calm exterior I
had prided myself on for the last six months was finally going to crack its
shell so that the crazy woman they all suspected was inside could finally
emerge.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think, since I returned to
work, they simultaneously feared it and looked forward to it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know a couple of them were hoping I’d have
some grief-induced breakdown and let our department manager, Michelle, finally
have it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And while it was tempting the
first month I was back, by the time the second month rolled around, I felt like
my window of opportunity had passed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
now I was expected to go on acting as normal as I had initially let everyone
believe I was.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">I
felt a hand gently close around mine and someone helping me slowly put the
receiver back into its holder.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Jane?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Are you okay?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could see Emily’s face peering at me
through my peripheral vision.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I’m
fine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Fine,” I said as I continued to
stare blankly at the gray wall of my office.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Awww,
don’t sweat it,” said Izzy in her raspy
I’m-a-smoker-but-I-don’t-tell-my-health-insurance voice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Emily can get Dan to call them later.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He’ll just say he’s Henry and we’ll get the
whole thing worked out.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“That
won’t work,” said Emily.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I bet they
already have in their notes that he’s dead.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>She’s called them, like, twenty times to get it changed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Surely someone has noted that somewhere.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“So?”
said Izzy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“We’ll tell them that he’s
calling from the Great Beyond and is very disappointed that his caller-ID
hasn’t been changed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’ll give a few
of those Hindus a jolt.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“That’s
not funny,” Emily hissed at her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>“Sweetie?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Are you okay?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Want to take a walk around the building with
me or something?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Get some fresh air?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“No…no…really.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m fine,” I said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I’m going to run to the bathroom for just a
minute.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Will you cover my phone?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Of
course.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">I
was an Event Planner in the Marketing Department at Claron , a company that
sold electronic components – or so I had been told.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My job, where I planned everything from small
golf tournaments with suppliers to sales meetings for the thousands of people
who worked selling small electronic parts to manufacturers around the world,
meant that I really didn’t need to know exactly what the company did as long as
their logo was placed correctly on the hundreds of golf shirts I ordered every
year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I took the job, it sounded
like a cushy gig and it took me six months to figure out that Corporate Event
Planner actually meant filling out a lot of paperwork, working with “creative”
(i.e., unreliable) people, and working with executives to make sure that their
food was warm – but not <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">too </i>warm –
when they wanted it, the beer that they liked that was only available in a
small town in Montana had been flown to wherever they were in the world, and
that the coffeemakers worked without a glitch in their Presidential suites
when they were in town for a meeting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The
one time I forgot to check, when I first started with the company, the
President who happened to be staying in that room found his coffee not to his
liking upon his arrival.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At which point,
he calmly walked down to the lobby with it and threw it onto the marble floor.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">In
the years that I spent working for Claron, I never had a firm grasp on what
they did and why and in many ways, given my job…it really didn’t matter that I
hadn’t figured it out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To me it seemed
like we were just one, big giant middle man and that all it would take was a meeting
between our customers (the people who actually made the electronics) and the
manufacturers (who made all of the little pieces that made the electronics
work) for everyone to suddenly say, “Hey!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>What in the hell are we paying these yahoos for?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Claron
always seemed to be working on a shoe-string budget, which was strange
considering how large and successful the company actually was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The cubicles were old, most of the chairs,
once lowered, could never bounce back to a comfortable height, and office
supplies were given sparingly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Most
employees were paid slightly less than they could have been making at other
companies, but since most of the people I worked with had been with Claron for
so long, the only reason I could come up with for their indentured servitude
was Bagel Fridays.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">As
an Event Planner, continual budget constraints were a huge headache for me
because while most departments envisioned having large and impressive events, with
a full bar, band, and expensive giveaway items that would entice more customers
to attend…they seemed to want that to happen for around five dollars a
person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This constantly put me in the
position of being the “bad guy” who did nothing but rain on everyone’s parade
and tell them that a light appetizer and a free pen was more realistic, given
what they had to spend.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">The
company was pretty old school in the way they operated, too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One of the many irritating things about the Claron
was that the phones were set up so that they would never go to voicemail and would,
instead, move from your own personal phone to the rest of the group if it wasn’t
answered in a timely manner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This made
sense for those people who were working in sales or in some sort of customer
service capacity, but for those of us who concentrated on the more internal
functions of the company, it really shouldn’t matter.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Unfortunately, that meant you couldn’t
quietly have a breakdown or nurse a hangover while letting calls go to voicemail
and, since we didn’t have Caller ID, you also couldn’t avoid a call from
someone who was harassing you by asking one of your cubicle mates to grab the
phone for you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could see my co-workers’
bodies get rigid every time they heard the phone ring, worrying that it could
be anyone from their mother to the vendor whose invoice they forgot to submit
until yesterday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">It
also meant that we could never go out to lunch all together and had to ask each
other to use the bathroom like five-year-olds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“You
take your time,” Emily said, patting me on the shoulder as I slumped out of our
bullpen of desks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“We’ll cover for you.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">I
walked slowly through the maze of cubicles, keeping my head down and offering a
half smile to the people who dared to say hello to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Since Henry’s death, most people either tried
to pretend like nothing had happened or avoided me altogether, which suited me
just fine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the beginning, it was the
people who wanted to have the long, involved conversations about loss,
widowhood, and how sad they were when their dog died that just about sent me
over the edge.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When the subject came up,
I could usually distance myself from the conversation in my mind, almost
retelling the story of what happened like it had happened to someone else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But every once in a while, someone would say
something unexpected and I would feel myself start to tear up, which made both
the other person and me uncomfortable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">The
people I appreciated the most were the ones who said the perfunctory “I’m so
sorry for your loss” and then moved on to ordering windbreakers for their
upcoming meeting and never mentioned it again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Of course, there were also the people who were so wrapped up in their
own lives they could never seem to absorb what had happened at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">When
I returned to work a week after the funeral, one of the Vice Presidents I occasionally
worked with, who prides himself on “knowing” all of the people who work under
him (when in reality he probably couldn’t tell you most of their names), slapped
me on the back as I was walking down the institutional-looking hallway. </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Enjoy
your vacation?” he asked cheerfully.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Without
waiting for a reply, he continued on his merry way, greeting people walking by
and making fake guns with his fingers like some extra in a bad 1970s movie…leaving
me standing there open-mouthed and stunned.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Now,
it seemed, the shock had worn off a little for everyone else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some people were still careful around me, but
most acted like they’d either forgotten or they assumed that I was over that
silly little dead husband business.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
for the most part, I still avoided eye-contact with everyone except the people
I knew well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And, after this latest
hiccup of trying to solve my caller-ID issue, I knew that this was one of those
moments when someone just saying hello to me had the potential to make me more
emotional than I was comfortable with in a work environment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So, I made my way to the bathroom, trying my
hardest to not draw any attention to myself.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
walked into the empty ladies room and gripped the cold porcelain of the sink, slowly
raising my gaze to meet my own in the reflection of the mirror.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My hair was longer than it had ever been,
falling lank and tired well below my shoulders and had graduated from shiny to
greasy because I kept forgetting to buy the shampoo that I normally used and
had started lathering in Henry’s old soap in the morning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It seemed to be getting its revenge on me for
my abandonment by throwing in a few pieces of kinky gray as if to say, “Oh
yeah?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Take that, bitch.” I had the
beginnings of a zit on my chin (courtesy of the two glasses of Chardonnay I’d
had the night before) that I could feel but hadn’t shown up yet, which meant
that when it decided to make its grand entrance, it would be a guest on my face
for at least a week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the glow of the
fluorescent lighting, my face looked pale which was punctuated by the dark
circles under my eyes and when I actually focused those brown eyes in the
mirror, the eyes that Henry used to say would change color depending on my
mood, it was obvious to me that even though I was present physically,…there
seemed to be nothing behind them.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">I
took a deep breath and turned on the cold water, letting it run over my fingers
for a minute and then touched my wet fingertips to my cheeks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could hear the sound of women’s voices
getting louder and louder until finally the door to the ladies room swung open
and two of the girls from Human Resources walked in laughing and looking like
they were wrapping up their lunch hour.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>As soon as they spied me, standing at the sink, their laughter abruptly
stopped and the discomfort set in.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Oh…hey,
Jane,” said Denise as her friend quickly walked into one of the stalls.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“How are you?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I’ve been meaning to call you and see if you’d like to go to lunch or
something one of these days.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Sure,”
I said, used to these gestures that would never amount to an actual confirmed invitation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Why don’t you give me a call when you have a
free day?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Sounds
good,” she said, visibly relieved that I hadn’t asked her to pinpoint a time
right at that moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I’ll call you.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">She
disappeared into the stall and shut it behind her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could hear her struggling out of her Spanx
as I opened the door to the bathroom and made my way out into the hall and back
into the gray maze of cubicle walls.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Denise
was one of the first people I talked to from the company after Henry died.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t know if she picked the short straw or
what, but she was the one who called me at home to offer the company’s
condolences.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And even though she had
received some sort of higher education in Human Resources, she was obviously
uncomfortable with the situation.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Jane?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is Denise from Human Resources,” she
said, in a very business-like tone two days after Henry’s accident.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Yes?”
I said, so tired at that point I didn’t know it was humanly possible to still
function.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I
just wanted to tell you, on behalf of Claron, how sorry we are for your loss,”
she said, as if she were reading from a prepared script.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Thank
you.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">That
must have been where the script ended because she suddenly sounded like she
didn’t know how to string two words together.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Yes…well…we
just wanted you to know you can take all the time that you need.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that we’ll look forward to seeing you
back at work a week from Monday.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“A
week from Monday?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As in 9 days?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Yes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Since you’ve been with the company for almost
five years, you are fortunate enough to receive an entire week of paid
bereavement leave.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Oh.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Okay.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“And
again…we’re so sorry.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Thank
you.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I…I
heard he went quickly.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“That’s
what they’re telling me.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Well,
that’s good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s good news.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That he went quickly.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Pause.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I
guess you could look at it that way,” I finally said.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Again, we’re so sorry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And we
look forward to seeing you back at work on the 19<sup>th</sup>.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">I
hung up the phone, and tried to figure out, with my brain that had turned to
cotton at that point, how in the world I was going to function at work in just nine
days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I mean, just that morning, my
mother caught me before I walked out the door to the funeral home with my old
stained college sweatshirt accompanying my nice khaki pants and heels.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She had silently taken me by the shoulders
and guided me back to my room, where she found an appropriate shirt for the
appointment and then picked Kleenex lint out of my hair before she tried to
brush it.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Go
back to work?</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">But
I didn’t really have a choice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After the
funeral and everyone had left - my parents making their way back to Seattle
where they were currently living, Henry’s parents heading back to South
Carolina saying, “Call us if you need us” because they knew I never would - I
found myself suddenly alone in the quiet Houston townhouse Henry and I had
lived in for the last few years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When
the door had been shut on the final guest, I sat on my couch, my cat, Glenda,
looking at me like I should be doing something else, and stared at my
surroundings as if I’d never seen them before.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I’ll
give you a week,” I said to myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“You
have a week to just sit here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ll
forgive you for that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After that, you’re
going to get up, go back to work, and get on with your life.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">At
first it really wasn’t so bad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Work gave
a little shape to my day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Up until that
point, I had been witness to how time could slow to a crawl and then speed to a
sprint in a pattern I never could figure out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I would find myself wide awake for days at a time, only to crash and
burn and sleep for 48 hours straight and still feel exhausted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After that week of literally just sitting –
on my bed, on my couch, on the rocker on the back patio – it felt good to get
up that Monday morning, take a shower, and know I had some purpose to my
day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“This
is it,” I thought my first morning back at work.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Last week, I was a widow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This week, it’s business as usual.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">At
least, when I went to work, I had Emily and Izzy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They were my yin and yang, my Ozzy and
Harriet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We had all worked together for
years and were completely comfortable with each other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In fact, I was the one who got Emily her job
in the Marketing department as an Account Manager.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She worked with the vendors and other
internal departments, putting together ad campaigns for the components we tried
to sell.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Emily had one of those
personalities that got along with just about anyone and a sweet smile that
could put an entire room at ease.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Izzy
had been there longer than I had and was the department Copywriter, a job she
described as the three D’s:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Dumbing Down
Dull.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This meant she had to take
whatever part the engineers described to her and explain it in a way that the
people purchasing the part would actually understand.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The fact that she had this job was ironic
considering her talent for vibrant language.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>She was constantly frustrated at the constraints put upon her by the
heads of the department.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“How
in the hell<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> </i>am I supposed to describe
this switch so that someone’ll buy it?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Izzy would ask us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“They won’t
even let me sex it up a little!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You
know, say something like ‘wouldn’t you like us to turn you on?’<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The last time I turned a catchy phrase into
Michelle, she looked at me like I was a moron and said, ‘Engineers won’t get
this.’<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m starting to wonder if
engineers get <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">anything,</i> if you know
what I mean.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">One
glance around at the friendly but somewhat geeky workforce that filled the
Claron office space…we knew what she meant.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Since
Henry’s death, Emily had begun watching me for any improvement or slippage,
mother-henning me when I needed it and stepping away with her concerned look
when I didn’t.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Izzy was my “tell it like
it is” girl who never failed to say on a daily, sometimes hourly basis, “This
totally sucks” or summing up my situation with a more colorful phrase.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I half expected, by the time I returned to my
seat after my run-in with my phone company, to find her on the phone, loudly
berating yet another customer service person in India on my behalf, explaining
the situation in a way that left no room for misunderstanding.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But when I got back to my desk, they were
both diligently typing away.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Hey,
kiddo,” Emily said, turning around in her swivel chair as I sat down at my
desk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“You okay?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Yeah,”
I said, giving my standard answer because I was too tired to go into why I
wasn’t.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I’ll call them again
tomorrow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After all…like Scarlett
said…’tomorrow is another day.’ Right?” </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Yup,”
said Izzy, tearing her eyes away from her computer screen and turning around to
face us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“And that bitch would know.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Speaking
of tomorrow,” said Emily.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“It’s
Friday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What do you have going on?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Oh…I
don’t know,” I said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Maybe go through
some more boxes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Try and get rid of some
stuff.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m trying to get organized.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Streamline. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You know…start moving on.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Whatever,”
said Izzy dismissing my half-hearted attempt at being positive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“What’s the rush?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You can do that any time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Come over to Emily’s for dinner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m bringing over a new guy for you all to
evaluate.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“New
guy?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“What new guy?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What happened to the last one?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Didn’t we just turn in our assessment?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What was his name…Brian?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Didn’t
work out,” Izzy said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“There were some
things about him that I knew I wouldn’t be able to stand in the long run.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Like
what?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Like…did
you hear the way he said ‘dinner?’<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
sounded like ‘deener.’<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I realized after
a couple of dates that unless I only ate lunch with him for the rest of my
life, it just wasn’t meant to be.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Geez,
Izzy,” said Emily rolling her eyes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>“Didn’t you say something like that about the one before him?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Well,
I’m sorry,” Izzy said, getting defensive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>“But I swear that man had the thinnest cheeks ever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was like listening to a carwash every time
he ate something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know you think I’m
crazy, but I swear I could hear him eat ice cream.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“And
you wonder why you’re still single,” said Emily.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“No,
I don’t wonder.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know why.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But if there’s anything I’ve learned from my
mother and her five failed marriages it’s that what annoys you in the first few
months of dating will down-right piss you off the first year of marriage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I don’t have the patience for that.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Whatever,”
said Emily, turning to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“What do you
say?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Come over around 7?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Oh…I
don’t know…” I said, hesitating.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I know
you might not understand this, but it’s kind of hard for me to be around
couples sometimes.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“What
couples?” said Izzy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Sure, Emily and
Dan have been married forever and that’s just not natural, but I just met
Jeff.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We’re not a couple.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Come on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We’ll get you properly drunk in the bosom of your closest friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I swear, since all of this happened with
Henry, you haven’t been drinking enough.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“How
do you know?” I asked, feeling the need to defend my assumed sobriety.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I could be getting hammered every night and
just not telling you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Would that make
you happy?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“It
would be a start,” said Izzy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Just come
over.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You have the rest of the weekend
to hide out in your sad little widow house all alone.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Fine,”
I said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I’ll go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But you have to promise me that if I drink too
much, you’ll dump this guy so I’ll never have to see him again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have the rest of your email addresses to
send you apologies the next day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t
want to have to add someone else to the list.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“It’s
a deal,” Izzy said, turning back to her computer.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“I’m
so glad that you’re coming,” said Emily, giving me her soft smile.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Dan will be so happy to see you.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">I
loved Emily too much to disabuse her of that notion, so I just returned her
smile, nodded, and turned back to my desk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The truth was, I loved Dan.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He
was this big, burly, bear of a man who always looked like he needed a
haircut.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>His huge personality and
boisterous laugh were the perfect opposite to Emily’s quiet nature.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They were one of those couples that you just
knew were meant for each other and moved together through life with an ease
that I didn’t even know was possible until I met them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">But
I knew he had been uncomfortable around me since Henry’s death.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I thought I was going to have to adopt a new
Indian name:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She Who Makes Man Cry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because every time he saw me, his eyes would
tear up a little.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We wouldn’t even have
to talk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just my presence was enough to
depress him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And even though Dan was one
of Henry’s closest friends, I didn’t see him for weeks after the funeral and until
one day my battery went dead on my car.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Call
if you need anything,” I had heard over and over again and there were very few
people I truly felt I could actually take up on that offer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But Dan and Emily fell into the dependable
category.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Desperate to find someone to
help me and cursing myself for not signing up for AAA like my mother had
suggested months earlier, I called to Emily’s cell phone to see if Dan was
around.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Emily,”
I said, feeling bad about breaking into their weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Can you send Dan over?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My battery is dead.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Of
course!” She said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“He’d be happy to
help.” </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Dan
spent an hour getting my battery out, buying a new one, and then putting it in,
never once looking me in the eye.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
don’t know if he ever talked to Emily about his discomfort with me and my new
situation but I think she sensed it because for the past few weeks, she had
been trying to put together little dinner parties, throwing us all together as
if trying to force us into a life that none of us recognized anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did my best to go with the flow when Emily
would make plans.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After all, it wasn’t
like I had anything better to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
usually, after one of those evenings together, I would go home after being
around other couples, look at my empty bed, and just wail at the unfairness of
life.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Think
about it,” Izzy said, trying to cheer me up after the funeral when we were
talking about my new single status.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“You
could paint the entire interior of your house pink.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You can go out without checking with someone
else’s schedule.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You can travel wherever
you want to go without worrying whether or not someone else is having a good
time.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">But
that kind of pep talk had no effect on me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Henry and I weren’t the kind of people who fought over frivolous stuff
like that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh, sure we argued a little, but
I really didn’t mind it because the outcome of our fights was usually the right
one.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“There
is no way in hell I’m spending $2500 on a recliner that has a heated seat,” I
said to him when we were looking for furniture as newlyweds.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“You
need to look at it as an investment,” he said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>“This is something that we’re going to have for years.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Well,
since it’s the ugliest thing I’ve ever seen, that really doesn’t make me feel
better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You would have been better off telling
me that it was going to fall apart in a few months and after that I could pick
out anything I wanted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And why would you
need a heated seat?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We live in Houston!”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“But
look at the cup holders!” He argued.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“Yeah.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Cup holders.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Plural.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why does a chair that
only fits one person need two cup holders?”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">“This
is Texas.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One for the beer and one for
the spit cup.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">We
argued in that store for close to an hour – I wanted more of a traditional
wingback chair and he wanted some 1980s throwback that would take up at least a
third of the space in our living room.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We were leaving the store in an angry silence when I spotted it:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A traditional wingback-looking chair that
reclined.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No cup holders.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No heater.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Since
neither one of us was speaking to the other by then, I just pointed to it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Henry sat in it for a minute and then smiled
at me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This I can do.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">He
would have never admitted that he liked the way that chair looked in our living
room just as I would never admit that I loved that it reclined.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I would catch him putting one of our
decorative pillows on it before we had company over and he would find me
relaxing in it with a book late at night when I couldn’t sleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That chair was the perfect statement about
us: that, alone, neither one of us knew what we truly wanted but together we
would always find what the other didn’t even know they needed.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">But
now I was one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One part of the equation
that could never seem to come up with the answer because a principle piece was
missing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One side of an argument that
would never be solved because the other half was gone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One side of a marriage that could no longer
really be called a marriage because you can’t have a marriage of one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was a single reservation at a
restaurant.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was the reason the 15 item
line at the grocery store was invented because that’s all one person
needs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Widowhood had made me a
loner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>An outcast in my own life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%; text-indent: .5in;">
<span style="font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; line-height: 200%; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">Because
I only knew how to function as two. </span></div>
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<br />
I wrote a blog a while ago about <a href="http://widowchick.blogspot.com/2011/08/back-to-school-blues.html" target="_blank">back-to-school</a> and how most people don't understand how hard that time of year is for many widow(er)s. It once again marks the passage of time, milestones with our kids that our spouses aren't here to see.<br />
<br />
Nine years into this and I'm getting a little more used to back-to-school.<br />
<br />
But filing taxes is something that always bites me in the ass.<br />
<br />
I just returned from my appointment and nine years into it I really didn't think much of it. Sure, I hate it. I mean, I left for this appointment right after I'd watched the idiots running for office on the news, only to write a check to future said idiots so they can probably piss it away.<br />
<br />
Fun times.<br />
<br />
I knew when I made the appointment that it was going to be painful. I somehow walked in to to make the appointment when the only person available was a dry, humorless man who typed me into the schedule and had to back-track every time he entered in a number because he kept hitting the wrong button.<br />
<br />
Doesn't instill a whole lot of confidence.<br />
<br />
I could hear another woman in the office who sounded like she was actually having <i>fun</i> with her clients and I was too polite to say to the man who looked like he should be pictured in Wikipedia as the perfect example of an accountant, "Please put me on her schedule."<br />
<br />
That would have been rude. I hate being such a pleaser.<br />
<br />
Anyway, nine years after the death of my husband you would think that I've already been through the worst with the whole tax thing. As we've all experienced, there's nothing worse than that first year when you file as "married" for a few months and "widowed" for the rest of the year.<br />
<br />
Personally, I think the government should use some of that pissed-away tax money to send us a condolence card when they see that. But I digress.<br />
<br />
So, I go into my appointment this morning thinking that the widowed worst is behind me when it comes to taxes.<br />
<br />
Not so fast.<br />
<br />
It wasn't like I forgot that we moved last year. I just didn't think much about it when it came to my widowness. But the moment I brought out all of the paperwork involving our old house and he looked it over and said, "So, your husband only lived in that house for three years out of the twelve you were there" in order to figure out some sort of complicated algorithm to determine what I inherited...I felt like I was going to burst into tears right into his cheap coffee mug.<br />
<br />
I held it together for the rest of the appointment. I've since returned from a meandering drive trying to clear my head, but that was useless. However, during that drive it occurred to me...why <i>shouldn't </i>I cry right in front of him?<br />
<br />
For crying out loud (literally), I've just written a check to him and to the government; shouldn't that go toward an emotional outburst?<br />
<br />
For that kind of money, I should have received a week at a spa/wine-tasting/yoga/dolphin-swimming resort.<br />
<br />
I began to envision what I wish my tax appointment could be like. I would walk into an office where the accountant has a kind face and a box of tissues on her desk. There would be a comfortable couch where I could lay down as she typed away, a tabletop fountain, and spa-like music playing in the background.<br />
<br />
As she goes through my taxes she would nod in understanding as I cry over all that's changed. She would listen patiently as I explain how much my husband and I loved that house and how hard it is to think that he was only in it for three years before he died. How different my taxes would be if he could be here because we would be two incomes instead of one. How heartbreaking it is to see her check "single" on my tax information and then enter in information about my three kids who don't have a father.<br />
<br />
There would be no time limit on the appointment. She would allow me to sit there all day if I needed to and if it stretched to five o'clock she would bring me a glass of chilled Chardonnay.<br />
<br />
My life wouldn't seem so black and white to her and, therefore, probably wouldn't to me as well. She would understand that there is an important, heartbreaking, empowering history behind the forms she was sliding under my nose to sign. And that would make the appointment a little more bearable.<br />
<br />
I would pay extra for this service, but to find an accountant/grief counselor would certainly be worth the expense.<br />
<br />
Instead I will write my black and white checks for the black and white form put together by the black and white man to be sent to a government that, apparently, only thinks in black and white and maybe go for another drive.<br />
<br />
I wonder if I can deduct the mileage?Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com24tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-70122609859167983542015-12-22T09:08:00.003-07:002015-12-22T09:08:54.035-07:00When a Kidney Calls<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />
I got a call yesterday that I'd been waiting on for a long time.<br />
<br />
They just didn't say what I'd hoped.<br />
<br />
I was driving a car full of kids (and I do mean FULL) to the local indoor pool for a swim. Since said kids were all spending the night at my house, I was doing what I could to tire them out. My phone started ringing, which the Bluetooth in my car picked up, but unfortunately my phone was all the way in the back of the car, so I couldn't really see who was calling - just a phone number I didn't recognize. I had that moment of indecision - should I pick up or not? - but worried it was one of the kids' moms I answered.<br />
<br />
"Is this Catherine?"<br />
<br />
"Yes."<br />
<br />
"This is John from the Donor Alliance. Is this a good time?"<br />
<br />
Again - moment of indecision. Chances were they were calling to ask if I'd make a speech or something, but my gut wasn't so sure.<br />
<br />
"I actually have kids in the car right now. Can I call you right back?"<br />
<br />
"Sure. I'll be here for the next two hours."<br />
<br />
After getting the kids settled in the pool area, I stepped out so I could watch them through the window.<br />
<br />
"Donor Alliance, this is Ashley."<br />
<br />
"Ashley - I'm returning John's call."<br />
<br />
"John in PR or John in Aftercare?" <br />
<br />
"Oh. I don't know." Yup. Speech.<br />
<br />
"One moment and I'll check with both."<br />
<br />
Cue elevator music.<br />
<br />
"Hi this is John in Aftercare."<br />
<br />
My stomach flipped. I'd written to Brad's organ donors twice, never hearing from any of them and part of me desperately wanted to. The other part was worried about how emotional that might be; it could be the best thing that's ever happened to me, connecting me with a living piece of Brad. Or it could send me spiraling back down a hole I've finally climbed out of.<br />
<br />
But before I could really dwell on either scenario, John continued.<br />
<br />
It seemed that I'd received a letter (for those of you who don't know, you have to correspond through the Donor Alliance until both parties agree to exchange personal information, protecting the privacy of both donors and recipients.) and John was calling to warn me before he sent it to me.<br />
<br />
The letter was from the husband of one of Brad's kidney recipients; his wife had died from an illness unrelated to the transplant. John just wanted to let me know before I found this letter in my mailbox.<br />
<br />
After thanking him for his sensitivity, I ended the call. I stood there, watching the kids play in the pool through through the window, and tried to process what I was feeling before I went in and tried to act human again. And one word kept popping into my head.<br />
<br />
I felt cheated.<br />
<br />
I didn't realize it up until then, but I think a part of me expected all of the people who received Brad's organs to live forever. They weren't supposed to <i>die</i> because he already did. He gave them some perfectly healthy stuff and I think I was expecting them all to outlive me. Or something.<br />
<br />
I don't know. Whatever has been going through my head since that call makes absolutely no sense. But the quickest way I can sum it up is that I feel sad. I feel like another part of him has died (which, technically it has). I'm disappointed. And, once again, I wish things could be different.<br />
<br />
As I type this, it occurs to me that this isn't all bad news. After all, this kidney recipient just passed last year. Which means she had seven extra years she wouldn't have had without Brad.<br />
<br />
In my mind, those years were filled with love, laughter, family, and friends.<br />
<br />
Brad would have liked that.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-41832435651485678712015-11-29T17:46:00.000-07:002015-11-29T17:46:56.722-07:00Losing It: A Widowed Mom's Thanksgiving WeekendI lost it this weekend.<br />
<br />
Big time.<br />
<br />
You know the story: Kid wants to go out for the night and needs a ride. Mom says she's too tired because she's been running said kid all over the place the entire weekend. Said kid starts to pout. Mom starts crying and screaming, "I don't know if you realize this, but I'm doing this by myself" as she slams out of the room.<br />
<br />
Okay. Maybe you didn't know that story. But you do now.<br />
<br />
Ugh. I wasn't pretty. And it's not a new scene. However, it happens a lot more in my head than it does in real life.<br />
<br />
It's not my kid's fault. Any of my kids. And most parents - widowed or not - totally get this. I'm tired. I don't want to shuttle your ass anywhere else. I already bought you new boots today. Isn't that enough??<br />
<br />
Kids are kids and we were all like that at one point in our lives. Yes, they're selfish and it's our job to teach them to think of others so they'll grow up to be caring human beings someday. <br />
<br />
But maybe not by throwing a temper tantrum (me, not her) and slamming out of the room.<br />
<br />
My argument was valid, though. And let's face it - our family situation can be shitty sometimes. But what <i>usually </i>happens is that I acknowledge how hard it must be for the kids to not have a dad. <br />
<br />
Very rarely do they acknowledge how hard it must be for me to not have a partner in all of this.<br />
<br />
Again, not their job. I get it. But as my daughter was begging me to basically spend two hours just driving her to the party and back last night, I couldn't help but bring up something I had been thinking about the entire weekend.<br />
<br />
"You know, I'm the <i>only </i>one of your friends' parents who does <i>everything</i>. If they're single, they're divorced which means they're driving their kids around every other weekend. I am doing it all on my own, all of the time. It's no one's fault - it is how it is. But sometimes I just wish you'd remember that and cut me a little slack."<br />
<br />
Of course, this wasn't said as calmly as I just typed it. But my point was made by the fact that I hadn't even showered (at 4 PM), I had just spent the afternoon before getting her to lunch and the movies with her friends, and hosting several other kids the night before (for my other kids) at an epic sleepover that involved sleeping bags sliding down stairs and other Motrin-inducing moments.<br />
<br />
I was done.<br />
<br />
I know this wasn't my kids' fault. I like for them to have fun. What I miss - truly, truly from the bottom of my core - is someone in my life who will either say to the kids, "You know what? You can stay home tonight. Let's let Mom rest" or "Don't worry, honey. I'll take care of it."<br />
<br />
Is that too much to ask????<br />
<br />
Don't answer that.<br />
<br />Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-11603683349892500422015-11-06T10:00:00.001-07:002015-11-06T10:00:03.236-07:00Does This Make Sense to You?<br />
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I've written about my husband's pack-rat nature and I've probably been a little unfair about it. After all, it probably made perfectly good sense to him to keep dried out pens in old check boxes and three mufflers in our garage. If I had passed before he did, he would have probably cursed me as he got rid of all of the dishes I like to collect and the twenty pairs of black pants hanging in my closet because I can't ever seem to pass them up when I find them in a tall size.<br />
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But whomever gets the task of going through my stuff upon my demise might find some other puzzling things around my house that I wish to explain right now.<br />
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There's a blue sweatshirt that has a tattered collar and rips in the cuffs of the sleeves. It's extremely soft on the inside and used to smell like soap and Old Spice deodorant. Years ago I tried replacing it, but its owner was never satisfied with the newer shirts that I bought. And then after he died, I spent many a night curled up in it, wishing its former occupant would come back and hug me one more time and I could put my head on the warm, solid shoulder that used to be in it. You'll see it in pictures holding a newborn baby girl and lying on the floor with a fluffy dog that's with her owner now.<br />
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There's a feather bed pillow at the top of my closet that looks yellow with age and someone else probably would have thrown it out years ago. But it was his favorite and, for some reason, I can't stand to part with it. The feathers sometimes stick out of the casing, but it can be punched down to the perfect shape that will encase your head and cover your ears. At least that's what he told me.<br />
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There are twelve coolers in my garage that you might think are a little excessive, but were given to us by friends and family at a wedding shower almost 20 years ago when we were moving to Florida. They've been on picnics, carried their fair share of beer, and take up more room in the garage than necessary. But for some reason they're necessary to me.<br />
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There's a teddy bear in my daughter's room that used to be white, but is now a light gray. It's holding a red rose, like the one he gave me along with that teddy bear while we celebrated our first Valentine's Day together in college.<br />
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There's a metal coffee mug in the back of my kitchen cabinet that has the logo of a college I didn't go to. It used to hold what I called "girly coffee" (which was more hot chocolate than anything) and wake its owner up when he would get in his car to go to work before anyone else in the house had stirred.<br />
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There's a torn leather chair in my office that someone else might have put in a donation pile long ago. You'll see that chair in many of the pictures with the sweatshirt (they seemed to go hand-in-hand) and it still holds kids when they come home from school and tell me about their day. It is bulky and worn and most women wouldn't want it in their feminine office. But to me it fits just right.<br />
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And last...there's a note in my drawer written in tiny, neat script that says, "I'll fix this when I get a chance. B." It's referring to an antique wooden box given to me by my grandmother that I foolishly broke years ago and almost tossed years later...when I opened it and found the note inside after the giver of the gift and the fixer had long passed.<br />
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I know that a lot of this probably doesn't make sense. And that's okay - it doesn't have to. We've all marveled and wondered about why people keep the things they do and how something so trivial could possibly be important.<br />
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But it's never the <i>thing</i> - it's all that's attached to it. The thing can be discarded. But there's always a fear that getting rid of it will make us remember less.<br />
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I haven't kept everything he had, which is probably what doesn't make sense to people. <i>How could she get rid of all of his clothes, yet keep a briefcase that's worn beyond repair? Why would she keep that really obnoxious football jacket she didn't even like when he was alive? Why would someone still have an email account saved on her computer with what looks like meaningless emails?</i><br />
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I don't know. But in some way, it just makes sense to me.<br />
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<i>So there.</i>Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-62624069340603221652015-10-15T15:22:00.000-06:002015-10-15T15:22:06.927-06:00If my therapist is reading this...I'll be in touch as soon as I hit "Publish."<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I've gotten a lot of comments, emails, etc. about my blog yesterday. So many of you understood what I was talking about (always a bonus when you think you're living in the Land of the Insane. Company is always nice).<br />
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And it brought me to this question: I'm trying to figure out why we bother dating at all? <br />
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I think part of it is that I have heard enough success stories within my own circles, widowed and not, to keep dipping my toe in. And I am extremely happy for those friends; they're all nice people who have found nice people and two rights never make a wrong (right?). They've been able to put aside their own hangups and look past those little things that seem to annoy me (Yes, to my friend Wendi Sue who posted on my Facebook author page...I agree with Jerry Seinfeld and I really don't like it when they eat their peas one at a time).<br />
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But there is one word that keeps flashing in my mind when I think about the whole dating thing.<br />
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<i>Fear.</i><br />
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Fear that it won't work out. Fear that it will. Fear that I'll make the wrong decision either way.<br />
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What most people in my situation get stuck on is the idea that something will happen to the person they've fallen for and that is a very real fear. I know I've had times when I've been dating someone, they'll tell me some ailment they have, and if it's anything bigger than a hangnail I start looking for the exit.<br />
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And we shouldn't be made to feel guilty about that. We're not being shallow - we just know what it's like to lose someone. And we're not anxious to do it again.<br />
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It was such a <i>violation</i> the first time - something was taken from us. I mean, if you'd been burglarized...wouldn't you be a lot more cautious about locking the door?<br />
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So, the other fear is the exact opposite: <i>What if I'm alone for the rest of my life? </i><br />
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That's the one that keeps me plugging away. I have three children at home right now and my life is a tornado of loud, smelly, laughing, yelling activity. But they will get older. They will move away (no seriously...they WILL move away).<br />
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And my house will be quiet.<br />
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Will I like that? Will I not? Will I wish I had spent this time - before my breasts have to be rolled up into my bra (right now they just have to be shoved into the right spot) - wishing I had been more proactive in finding a partner?<br />
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Or will I enjoy the silence and congratulate myself on having complete control over the remote?<br />
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I have no answer here, as is often the case. But the one thing I hate about this situation is that it is all so based in fear. That never gets anyone anywhere. The problem is that at this age, I've experienced so much - some good, some bad - that I'm trying to do everything I can to find the good again without experiencing the bad.<br />
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And I should really know by now that that's not possible.<br />
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The problem is that almost everything in life is so damn unexpected - both the good and the bad. I didn't expect my husband to die just like I didn't really expect to meet him in the first place. I didn't expect to be on my own, just as I didn't expect to like it as much as I do now. I didn't expect to come home one day and to a completely pristine house because my kids cleaned the whole thing while I was gone. Which is good because that never happened.<br />
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Just wanted to see if you were still reading.<br />
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Is the secret to happiness to let go of all of your expectations? <br />
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But then won't you just be expecting something to happen because you've given up your expectations?<br />
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(If my therapist is reading this...I'll be in touch as soon as I hit "Publish.")<br />
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<br />Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-86237423452197212502015-10-14T12:24:00.000-06:002015-10-14T16:17:31.635-06:00I'm the Relationship Vulture: If you have a flaw, I'll circle until I find it.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I couldn't sleep last night because I had so many great ideas about how to write this blog. I really should have gotten up and done it because now I can't remember one damn thing.<br />
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Oh, well. We'll just wing it today.<br />
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As with most things in the last 8+ years, I feel like I'm going backwards. I wrote about that a lot in <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Mediocre-Widow-Husband-Sanity/dp/1402285221/ref=asap_bc?ie=UTF8" target="_blank">my book</a> - in fact, that was the main reason I felt so "mediocre." I kept thinking that I was grieving backwards and mourning my husband in the wrong order. I lived life at a break-neck pace in the beginning, only to crash months later. I threw parties and emmersed myself in my friendships and then isolated myself later in my dimly lit basement where I cranked out a book.<br />
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And I dated early...which brings me to where I am today. Not wanting to date at all.<br />
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There are moments when I let myself remember what it's like to be part of a relationship - to hold hands walking through the mall, to ask someone what they think about what's on TV, to have that blind acceptance of someone else because you know they feel the same way about you.<br />
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Yes. I miss that.<br />
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But it's the <i>getting there</i> that I can't do. Years ago, after Brad died, I was so determined to find someone else and settle down again that I was open to just about anything. Now, eight years later, alone and somewhat jaded (I'll be the first to admit it), I'm not open to anyone. I don't know when it happened. It just did.<br />
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Well, that's not entirely true. When I look back I can see the progression. I was married to a good man and I lost him. I had a relationship after that that hurt me deeply which was yet another loss. Both of those experiences left me scared. And being scared forced me into a life in Singleville. And being single became something I cling to.</div>
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In other words: all those years ago I was scared to be alone. Now I'm scared to be attached.</div>
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So, here's what happens. With every man I encounter, I pick them apart to the point where there's nothing left. I'm the relationship vulture. If you have a flaw, I'll circle until I find it. I'm not mean about it - it's all in my head. But if they have <i>any </i>of the qualities of the men that haven't worked out since my husband died...I'm outta there.</div>
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And what if they don't have one? Well, that's the pickle I'm in now.</div>
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I went on a date last week (my mother's going to read this and say, "<i>What? </i>And you didn't tell me?") and it was lovely. He showed up with rose (who does that anymore?), took me to see a jazz band (points for creativity), and we went out for a bite to eat where he suggested we order just about every fried item on the appetizer menu (I hope he's still around when I'm PMSing -that could come in handy).</div>
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Up until that point, I'd already been testing him. Oh, yes. Me and my wicked ways. I'm widowed. I have three kids. I work. Which makes me unresponsive, unavailable, and usually has any man saying after a week, "You know what? It doesn't seem like you have time for this."</div>
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Not this one (so far). I get text messages that tell me how much he admires me for taking all of this on my own. That he doesn't want to push, but he would be really happy to see me when I can make it work. That he understands if I don't call when I say I will because I have so much going on.</div>
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Well, shit. <i>Now </i>what do I do?</div>
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Here's the sad part - the part where the girl finds a nice guy and realizes that being single has nothing really to do with the men out there. It's entirely her doing and she has to decide if being with someone else is worth the risk. She has to decide if the fear that she's allowed to take over her life (in many areas) is what's going to be her companion. If it will keep her safe.</div>
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I don't know.</div>
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I had a consultation with an author yesterday who is working on a memoir about the abuse she suffered when she was first married in the 1960s. She never remarried and she said, "I never wanted anyone to have control over my life again."</div>
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And I found myself nodding along to everything she was saying. I've never been abused, but I am a control freak and allowing someone else to influence my life is a very scary prospect right now.</div>
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But I listened to this woman, who is now in her 70s, tell me she's been alone since then. And that got me to thinking.</div>
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<i>Do I want the next memoir I write to be about all the fear that's kept me from living? </i></div>
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I don't think so.</div>
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I mean...who would read THAT?</div>
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<a href="http://higherperspectives.com/single/" target="_blank">17 Things To Expect When You Start Dating Someone Who Has Been Single For A While</a></h1>
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Being single awards us certain privileges like not having to consider
a partner in decision making and taking up literally all the space on
the bed at night. There are 17 things you should consider when you start
dating someone who has been alone for a while.<br />
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<b>1. They might do things without letting you know</b></h3>
At first at least. Being single for an extended period of time gets
you into the habit of acting alone. As your relationship develops, so
will your partnership with them.<br />
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<b>2. They’ll likely want to move slowly</b></h3>
It’s not that they don’t like you. They’re just not in a rush to be married to you.<br />
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<b>3. Their friends might be overprotective</b></h3>
But that’ll wear off with time. They’re just not used to seeing their friend be with someone else.<br />
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<b>4. They might not let you do things for them</b></h3>
Again, don’t take it personally. Single people are used to taking
care of themselves. They’re not used to having someone look out for
them.<br />
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<b>5. </b><b>They might be a little stubborn at first</b></h3>
Don’t worry, it’ll fade. Much like doing things without letting you
know, this is how a single person operates. But eventually, your
partnership will materialize.<br />
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<b>6. They’ll want to be left alone sometimes</b></h3>
Especially at first. They’re probably not going to be head over heels
for you the second your first date starts. They might still be nervous,
but not exactly eager to jump into anything too serious too fast.<br />
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<b>7. There may be a point where they pull away</b></h3>
Give them time and space. They are probably just realizing how serious it’s getting.<br />
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<b>8. They might question your feelings</b></h3>
They’ll probably want to get into your head. They’re used to being
able to figure things out on their own with themselves. Now they feel
like they have to figure you out too.<br />
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<b>9. They might be headstrong initially</b></h3>
They’re not likely to ask for or accept help. They’ll let go of their tight grip eventually.<br />
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<b>10. They have their guard up</b></h3>
But like everything else listed here, they’ll let it down eventually. Especially if you’re patient.<br />
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<b>11. They might not be too trusting at first</b></h3>
And besides, why would they trust you fully after a few dates? Be patient and it’ll come.<br />
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<b>12. They’ll seem strong</b></h3>
But don’t be intimidated. It’s just a protective shell. They’ll come out eventually.<br />
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<b>13. They might be reserved</b></h3>
A lot of these apply to me before I found myself happily in a
relationship but this one. I’m outgoing on a date. Maybe too outgoing.
But not everyone is like that. In general.<br />
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<b>14. They may not show any vulnerability</b></h3>
Their weaknesses may be hidden. They’ll likely feel weak once those
vulnerabilities are out in the open. Make sure you’re there to protect
your new partner.<br />
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<b>15. They don’t need you</b></h3>
And they may never. But in time, they’ll want you, and that’s what you want.<br />
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<b>16. They’re likely afraid</b></h3>
Afraid of being hurt, of being in love, and of being loved. They may be afraid of being hurt again.<br />
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<b>17. Being alone is their comfort zone</b></h3>
So be sure to take care not to charge into their comfort zone uninvited.<br />
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Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-60064542165458399812015-09-20T21:31:00.002-06:002015-09-20T21:31:49.206-06:00I Can Take Anything Anybody Calls Me so Long as it's Not TrueI stole that line. I stole it from Harper Lee's <i>Go Set a Watchman. </i>But since I suspect that manuscript was in some ways stolen from her...I think it's okay.<br />
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But that's another blog.<br />
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I spent three years in a relationship where I was basically manipulated and sometimes verbally abused. I could say a lot more about it, but I won't. I really should, but I won't.<br />
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When this other person wasn't getting his way, he would call me many things...one of which was selfish; which I think we all are to a certain extent (and if we aren't, maybe we should be). And of all the names he called me...that was the one that never really hit my soul.<br />
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You know why?<br />
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Well, after reading that quote, I do. <br />
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Because it wasn't true.<br />
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It's funny. Being selfish is probably one of my biggest fears. Which is probably why I'm not. And I know I'm not. I'm a good friend. I will help you pick up all of your pieces if you let me. I give what I can (but I am learning to save a little) <br />
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This person would say this to me, push my buttons and make me prove it wasn't true. For years I couldn't figure out why it didn't hurt me when he said it - maybe I was just <i>too</i> cold? Maybe I was so selfish I didn't even see it? <br />
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Or maybe it didn't hurt me because it wasn't true.<br />
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I guess some people might think this blog is self-serving.<br />
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It's not.<br />
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I'm just proud of myself for knowing who I was before I knew it.Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-82447549923789834752015-09-15T14:14:00.000-06:002015-09-15T14:14:48.253-06:00What Was She THINKING?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I posted an article earlier this week (I think. What day is it???) that struck a chord with so many. And it really was a great piece. If you missed it, check out <i><a href="http://www.kelseypoe.com/shitty-advice-to-widows/" target="_blank">10 Contradictory and Bull-shitty Scraps of Advice Given to Widows</a>. </i>It really details so well the contrary opinions we get so often - and usually by the same person.<br />
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But, be careful. People in glass houses shouldn't throw bad advice or judgments or in any way make those of us in the widow community feel bad about the decisions they make.<br />
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Do you think I can fit that on a bumper sticker?<br />
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While that article does point out a very specific problem, it mainly points to those people outside of our circle who have no idea what it's like to be us.<br />
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But...what about those of us who <i>do?</i><br />
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I'm guilty of it (but less so now than I used to be). I wasn't very vocal about it, but there have been times during my widowhood when I've silently judged a fellow griever and questioned the decisions he or she has made. And I've probably done it for the same reason as the rest of the world, widowed or not, and that is to make myself feel better about my own questionable decisions.<br />
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After all...aren't most decisions questionable? That's why they are decisions. If there was a hard and fast rule to living any life, we wouldn't have to make any.<br />
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Huh. I had no idea I was going to say that before I typed it.<br />
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Anyway, I've found that usually when people give unwanted advice or feel that their opinions are <i>so right</i> they have to be heard, it's usually in an area where they feel insecure about what's going on in their own lives.<br />
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People in unhappy relationships can't wait to tell you if you should or should not be dating.<br />
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People who hate their jobs can't wait to give you professional advice.<br />
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People who have juvenile delinquents for kids are the first to tell you how to parent.<br />
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You get my drift.<br />
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So, I'm going to take a guess and say that where we widows suffer the most judgment is in the world of relationships. And I'm betting that most of the judgment we feel is actually from
others in The Widowhood, especially when we've decided to bravely accept
a new person into our lives. We can sympathize with others when it comes to changing jobs or moving or the hardships of single parenting.</div>
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But if one of us starts dating or - <i>gasp</i> - gets remarried...you never know what people are going to say.</div>
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Oh, sure. Most people will publicly announce that they're happy and maybe some of them are. But many don't understand, don't <i>want </i>to understand, or...okay, I'm just going to say it...are jealous of someone else who's found happiness again.</div>
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I feel like I can say that because I've been on both sides of that coin.</div>
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I've had friends who have been widowed a lot less longer than I have who have married or have been in long-term relationships longer than the failed one I attempted a couple of years ago. And while 95% of me is happy for them...the other 5% is wailing, "<i>Why not ME?"</i> </div>
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On the other hand, while I was in the previously stated failed relationship, I had several people in the widowed community tell me I couldn't possibly understand what they were going through because I had a boyfriend.</div>
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<i>Really? </i>One doesn't cancel out the other, people.</div>
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I know that because while I was in a relationship that didn't diminish how much I missed my husband. And I have heard from MANY of you who have bravely wandered this path into New Relaionshipdom who email me and tell me how much you still miss your late spouse.</div>
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The difference is that the people who have stayed solidly single feel more comfortable with admitting it than those who have embarked on a new relationship. Their grief is usually held silently, afraid of the judgments of widowed and non, and they'd rather be perceived as someone who has "moved on" to the rest of the world rather than someone who is still "stuck" on someone else, even though they're with someone new. </div>
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Some of the bravest people I know are those who put their lives right out there in public and take whatever criticism comes their way. Those bloggers and leaders in the widow community who have worked so hard to just be <i>happy</i>, whether it's through work or a relationship or both, have put up with a <i>lot </i>of judgment, mainly from the communities they've tried to serve. </div>
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Do you know what I wish for? (Other than the winning PowerBall ticket.)</div>
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I wish that every person on the planet would just admit they don't know what in the hell they're doing. Because do any of us really? I don't. While I've had "what was she thinking" flash through my brain many times these last eight years when I hear about another person's life decisions, I've come to realize that whomever it is that I'm judging probably doesn't know what they're thinking either - and they really don't need my input.</div>
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I was scared to death when I moved, even though I tried to assure everyone I knew exactly what I was doing. I'm scared to be single, scared to be in a relationship. I started a new job and was scared that I wouldn't be able to carry the burden of work and parenting all on my own, but if you had asked me when I started I would have said, "I'm so excited."</div>
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Any decision we make has a 50/50 chance of working out. And I can guarantee you that as you're judging someone else for the choices they're making,<i> no one</i> is being harder on themselves than the person in question.</div>
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I mean, do you really think that a widow getting ready to walk down the aisle isn't thinking to herself just a little bit, "I hope I'm doing the right thing"?</div>
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She doesn't know that what she's doing is 100% right.</div>
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And guess what?</div>
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Neither do you.</div>
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Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-31793461382039876542015-09-02T23:41:00.001-06:002015-09-02T23:48:43.840-06:00Why Would You EVER Mention Your Spouse's Name on a Date?Oh c'mon.<br />
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Don't you know better?<br />
<br />
That guy (or girl) doesn't want to hear about it. All of your past experiences? Your <i>life? </i><br />
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He doesn't want to hear about how your husband stood by you while you studied and worked for a degree. She doesn't want to hear about that moment when your children were born.<br />
<i> </i><br />
He could care less about the moment you met.<br />
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She doesn't like it when you mention your wife. At all.<br />
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<b>Why would you ever consider sharing your life with </b></div>
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<b>someone who doesn't care about...your life?</b></div>
Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-52451396758368113022015-08-20T15:47:00.000-06:002015-08-21T12:04:40.185-06:00Kathie Lee Gifford is Already Looking Happy at Work? Guess She Didn't Love Her Husband Enough.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I bet that title made a few of you want to reach through your computer screen and smack me.<br />
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Good.<br />
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This morning I was taking a break from work and turned on the Today Show and there was Kathie Lee, bouncing around with Hoda. I did a little bit of a double-take and thought, "She's back at work <i>already?</i>"<br />
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I was one of the many widows who cringed when I heard that her husband, Frank Gifford, had passed away - not necessarily because I'm a huge fan of hers, but because I hate hearing that <i>anyone </i>is about to go through what I've been through.<br />
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It has made me less sympathetic for the dead and more concerned for the living.<br />
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Anyway, I was thinking that anyone who hasn't experienced the loss of a spouse might be watching her, thinking, "Wow. She got over that fast."<br />
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I can assure you...she didn't.<br />
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I was watching her on screen, going through the motions of her normal life and for a moment I could feel where she is and where I've been; attempting to get back to normal, functioning so perfectly that no one would ever guess her inner turmoil.<br />
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But there's a problem with that - and the problem is everyone else's. It's the same problem we all run into when we date, move, keep working, or move forward in any way at our own pace.<br />
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Other people think we're not as heartbroken about our spouse's death as we should be.<br />
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And if that's what you're thinking, I feel it's my duty to say on behalf of the widow community....<br />
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SHUT. UP.<br />
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If Kathie Lee is like the rest of the country (and I know she's not, but let's pretend she is) her office could have given her three days bereavement leave before they expected her back at work. She could have just decided that a routine of any kind was better than staying at home with her own morbid thoughts as company. She might have needed to just get out and be with people. She could have adopted the old "fake it 'til you make it" motto that has gotten me through a few rough spots.<br />
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None of that has anything to do with how much she loved her husband or how she's actually feeling.<br />
<br />
She could show up on the red carpet tomorrow on the arm of a new man. That could be because he's a friend. It could be because he's a lover. It could be because he makes her feel secure in this new horrible world she's in. It could be because he gives her something to look forward to and makes her week a little more bearable. She might need the companionship. She might just want someone to hug her when she needs it.<br />
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None of that has anything to do with how much she loved her husband or how she's actually feeling.<br />
<br />
Kathie Lee could tell you tomorrow the entire story of her husband's death without shedding a tear. She could tell you the most intimate details about his last moments. She could someday stand stoically at her daughter's wedding or give a speech in front of thousands about who her husband was with dry eyes and a smile on her face.<br />
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None of that has anything to do with how much she loved her husband or how she's actually feeling.<br />
<br />
Many of us who have traveled this path have been judged for how we've coped and and the pace at which we've progressed. We're either stuck or insensitive - there is very little room in the public's opinion for the grey area that is reality. And the reality is this.<br />
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No matter your experiences you have no idea what someone else is truly going through.<br />
<br />
Even though I'm a widow, I can't imagine what is actually going through Kathie Lee's mind as she goes through the motions at work, grocery shopping, or out to dinner with friends.<br />
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But I can assure you, as you judge her for pasting that smile on her face mere days after losing her husband...<br />
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...that smile has nothing to do with how much she loved her husband or how she's actually feeling.Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com31tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-83684916785722044352015-08-17T16:19:00.001-06:002015-08-21T12:40:51.587-06:00Does It Get Easier?<br />
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I don't know about some of you who are further down the line like I am...but sometimes I feel like I'm doing a disservice to the newbies when I tell them it gets easier.<br />
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I don't mean to and it's not like I'm lying - I think the problem is that "easier" isn't the right word.<br />
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And I don't know what is.<br />
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Let's see...the synonyms for "easier" are the following:<br />
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<i>calmer </i>(Uh...no. That doesn't apply.)<br />
<i>relaxed </i>(Are you kidding me?)<br />
<i>comfortable </i>(Never.)<br />
<i>simpler, uncomplicated, effortless </i>and <i>unproblematic </i>(There's laughing in my head right now.)<br />
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Okay, so all of you newcomers are right. It doesn't get easier.<br />
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But there are a lot of us out there functioning and many are doing it quite well. So, what's the deal?<br />
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Every once in a while, I come across an article or a quote in a book that perfectly describes something that I've experienced better than I could ever articulate. I love it when that happens. I feel like hugging the writer and saying, "<i>YES. Thank you so much for putting into words what I couldn't!" </i><br />
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But it's hard when the right word doesn't even seem to exist. <br />
<i> </i><br />
I think most of us who have been hanging out in the Widowhood will often use the word "adapt" when it comes to describing where we might be years after the initial crumbling of our former worlds. And when I look up the synonyms for that (sorry about the impromptu vocab lesson), the following words come up:<br />
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<i>alter </i>(Okay. I'm trying.)<br />
<i>adjust </i>(Working on it.)<br />
<i>change </i>(And HOW.)<br />
<i>rework </i>(Don't rush me.)<br />
<i>fit </i>(Hmmmmm...now there's a thinker.)<br />
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I've been trying to think of an analogy that might fit this situation, but most are pretty inadequate. I've been thinking about the summer I sprained my ankle and was in one of those boots for a few weeks. Yes, the boot made my foot feel better, but I had to change the way I walked and that caused me some lower back pain.</div>
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The injury was there. And while I tried to fix it the pain moved to another location.</div>
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I know that's kind of a dumb way to think about the pain of grief, but it does sometimes seem like the moment we fix one injury, another comes up in its place; as soon as we get used to sleeping in a bed alone we get invited to a wedding and have no "plus one" and that sends us over the edge once again. The focus shifts from what we previously thought was so hard to the challenge that's before us.</div>
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And that's not easy.</div>
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It does make me wonder if those of us who have learned to be adaptable are the ones who are able to say it gets "easier." And I actually don't think that you're either adaptable or you're not - I think that it depends on the situation. </div>
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There have been times in my life when I've fought so hard to hold on to my past that it would be impossible for me to change. And then there are times when I've closed my eyes and jumped, hoping that it will all work out.</div>
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And it does. One way or the other. </div>
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I guess the bottom line is the idea of widowhood getting "easier" in any way totally depends on the person. We all know that all of our timelines are different, our situations are different, and our coping methods are completely individual. </div>
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I know that, in the beginning, when someone would tell me that it gets easier, I wanted to know the exact date, time, and cause of death of the person's spouse so that I could compare notes with my own situation. </div>
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"Okay...so her husband died two years before mine...in an accident...so in exactly six months, four days, and three hours things should be getting easier."</div>
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Doesn't work like that.</div>
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And the truth is, that what "easier" means to someone could be completely different from your definition: She could mean that she actually took a shower that morning <i>and </i>remembered to put on matching shoes while you're thinking she means that she is now remarried, got a promotion at work, and is training for a marathon.</div>
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I can assure you, that this journey is never "easy" for anyone...I don't care how far out you are or what your current life situation is. Life will never be "simpler, uncomplicated, and effortless."</div>
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But then again...it never was.</div>
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<br />Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-78500689810897902832015-07-30T19:24:00.001-06:002015-08-21T12:42:08.940-06:00Where the Hell are you Going?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Do you ever have one of those moments that jolts you awake...even though you're not sleeping?<br />
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I do.<br />
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I love it when that happens. There's just something that clicks in my head and lets me knows that it's something important and I suddenly feel awake.<br />
<br />
And both the feeling of something important happening and feeling truly awake are kind of rare occurrences.<br />
<br />
I enjoy my laziness and my sleep. Especially at the same time. <br />
<br />
Anyway, I was sitting with my family the other night, enjoying the Lyle Lovett concert at Red Rocks (I don't care what your musical tastes are...that man is a song-writing genius) when he introduced his fiddle player and asked him to play a song on his own.<br />
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Luke Bulla took over the microphone and in a voice as clear as a bell began to sing while strumming his fiddle. For the life of me, I can't remember the name of the song, but one line made me sit up straighter. And it went something like....<br />
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<i>I won't know where I'm going until I know where I've been.</i></div>
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And I don't think one sentence could have summed up this summer for me better than that.</div>
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<i> </i></div>
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<i></i><br /></div>
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Here's the hard part. You have to embrace your past in order to get on with the future. But sometimes the past is like the person you're trying to save in the deep end of the pool: You can either allow it to take you both down or you can smack it in the face and take control in order to save you both.</div>
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Okay. That was a weird analogy. I just came up with it. So roll with me.</div>
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I didn't realize until recently what a strangle-hold my past has had on me. How paralyzed I was. How it took making major changes, personally and professionally, to find the release I needed.</div>
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But you can't completely escape your past. I know that and I don't want to. It's just a matter of deciding how much power I'm going to allow it to have.</div>
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Am I going to sink or swim?</div>
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~</div>
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It's been eight years. And I know exactly what's happened to me. I can tell you the story of how my husband died. I can tell you how the kids and I have survived. </div>
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I see it now and I understand it more. And I get it. I really <i>can't</i> know where I'm going until I know where I've been. And that takes perspective. And in many ways...it has nothing to do with widowhood.<br />
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<i> </i></div>
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I can see my past as a mother and I can appreciate where that experience is sending me.</div>
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I can see who I've dated and can understand their places (not too many places, Mom) in my life.</div>
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I can see all of the memories I thought were so unimportant when they happened as the pieces of my life that I should appreciate the most. </div>
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Because those memories aren't just my past. </div>
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They're where I've been.</div>
Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-42753293250780492132015-07-16T20:05:00.001-06:002015-07-16T20:08:13.385-06:00What the...?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />
I get a lot more traffic on this blog when I'm unhappy.<br />
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I get it. That's why I have a subscription to <i>US Weekly. </i>It's not that I want to see people fail...it's just that I want to feel like a real person when shit hits the fan. And celebrity shit seems bigger than mine; therefore I feel better that my shit doesn't warrant a cover story in <i>US Weekly.</i><br />
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Anyway.<br />
<i> </i><br />
I'm happy. So, if you don't like that, just stop reading now. I'm not going to dig down to that deep unhappy place to appease the masses. Not to say I won't be unhappy again. So, stay tuned for later posts if that's what you're looking for.<br />
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~ </div>
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<i>"I was just thinking of you," </i>said the voicemail recording. <i>"I know this is a really hard time for you. Just call me when you get a chance."</i><br />
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Huh?<br />
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Today is July 16th. Years ago (maybe even last year) I was detailing how agonizing this date was for me. This was the day of the accident. Tomorrow would be the full day at the hospital. The next would be the day he died.<br />
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Eight years ago.<br />
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And I almost forgot.<br />
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It's here, I know it is. But somehow it doesn't hurt quite as much. It's not crippling. It's here and I can give it a slight nod as it passes...and not fall down, gripping its ankles like a person life forgot as I did before.<br />
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It's here.<br />
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And I'm <i>happy.</i><br />
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To quote my children: "Whaaaa...?"<br />
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I know. I feel the same way.</div>
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If someone had told my shaky, nauseous self last year that this anniversary was going to pass with barely a tremor, I would have said, "Girl, you're crazy."</div>
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Actually, it probably would have been more like, "Shut the f--- up and hand me a bucket."</div>
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But that's where I am. No bucket. No shakes. No nauseous. I'm living a whole new life I didn't even know was out there. It has nothing to do with finding a new relationship. I'm alone and I like it. The kids are the same; driving me crazy one minute and endearing the next. I've stopped waiting for my life to begin and <i>for the first time in eight years</i> I actually feel like I'm living it.</div>
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I'm in it.</div>
Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-41989834954470191492015-07-06T21:36:00.000-06:002015-07-06T21:36:03.135-06:00I Don't Know What to SayI don't know how to start this blog. I guess I should just start by telling the truth.<br />
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I am so happy.<br />
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For months I wondered what this would feel like. My stuff is in a new place. My kids are still trying to figure out where everything is. My cat looks at me, completely bewildered, wondering where in the hell she is.<br />
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She's home.<br />
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I've gone back and forth on the whole moving thing for a long time. Let's see...Brad died almost exactly eight years ago...so seven and a half years ago I thought about moving. And I didn't and I was right.<br />
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Until I did. And I was right then, too.<br />
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This is just like everything else we've been through on this road; what's hard for you is a speed bump to someone else and a small twist in the road to someone else might derail you.<br />
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It's personal.<br />
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In this new house, I don't see the spot where my husband said goodbye for the last time. I don't see where the Christmas tree has been for the last twelve years, eight of them without him. I don't see the work bench he built. I don't walk the lawn wondering if he likes the way I'm mowing it.<br />
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It wasn't easy. These last few weeks have been like, yet again, ripping off a band-aid. As I cleaned the kids' rooms, I shared a silent memory in each one and shut the door quietly as if kissing each one goodbye: the border Brad pasted to Haley's room when she was five; the border I painted in Michael's when he was a baby; Sarah...she came home from the hospital to that house. <br />
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I looked around my room and remembered for the last time that morning my husband said goodbye.<br />
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I loved that house for being a home...and I hated it for trapping me. <br />
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It was simultaneously a source of comfort and pain.<br />
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And now?<br />
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Here I am. I'm typing this in a new room. Kids are laughing outside. I'm surrounded by boxes. I have a glass of red wine next to me. I don't like the color of this room, but I can change it because it's mine. <br />
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It's mine.Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-79625132505102847322015-06-21T21:52:00.000-06:002015-06-21T21:52:15.751-06:00Run With Me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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For weeks now, I've been trying not to make eye contact with it. I was sure that if I just looked the other way it would leave me alone.<br />
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And it worked, for the most part. Sometimes at night I could feel it trying to stare me down, but I would just roll over and think of something else. And that would make it go away.<br />
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Until today.<br />
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My kids left for camp today and will be gone for two weeks. And while a part of me has been looking forward to it, my heart, which is the biggest part of me (okay, maybe not the <i>biggest</i>, but the biggest part that doesn't get exponentially bigger due to my love of Doritos) has been dreading it.<br />
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This morning, my kids said goodbye to the house they've grown up in, celebrated in, lost a father in, and called home for better or for worse. After a balloon release in the driveway, both for Father's Day and to say goodbye, I watched as my oldest cried in the driveway, my son silently went to his bedroom for a good cry, and my youngest sat on the stairs staring into space.<br />
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For a few weeks, I wasn't sure if they got it, actually. I'd been dreading today because I knew what was coming and even though we've been talking about the fact that we'll be moving while they're at camp...I wasn't sure if they realized the finality of leaving today.<br />
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Well, they did.<br />
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As they cried, I felt like the worst mother in the world, asking them to not only leave me for two weeks, but to also leave the home they've grown up in forever...all on Father's Day which - let's face it - totally blows. I know that this moment would have been hard no matter what the circumstances were and I wish I could have avoided it somehow. I've often thought that my ideal scenario would be to move and keep this house as almost a shrine to our past; someplace we could come back to when we needed to feel grounded.<br />
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But for some reason my bank didn't agree with that idea.<br />
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Night before last I took the kids to see the movie <i>Inside Out </i>and it really couldn't have come at a better time. It's creative, funny, and such an amazing movie but the best part about it was the message that we can't live without all of our emotions. They have to coexist in some way otherwise they just don't work at all.</div>
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Usually with every happy memory, a sad one comes with it. It works the other way, too. When I think of how depressing my husband's funeral was, it comes with the memory of sitting around with all of our friends, laughing and sharing stories. Even the dumb things I've done (which are plentiful) come with an eye roll on my part, a little smile and a, "I can't believe I <i>did </i>that."</div>
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And now, with this huge transition upon us, I can cry because I'm leaving this house...and smile when I think of what's ahead. </div>
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I can't move forward without leaving. And that makes me incredibly happy and sad all at once.</div>
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So, now I'm moving forward. </div>
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When I was a kid, I liked nothing more than to run down a good hill. Remember when you used to do that? Your legs would start going so fast, you weren't sure if the rest of your body could keep up. You couldn't stop...you were already in motion. </div>
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The only question was...would you be able to catch up with yourself or would you end up losing your balance and rolling down the hill until things evened out?</div>
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Life is motion and sometimes it moves so fast it's hard to keep up. But there is always a leveling out, whether you're able to run the whole way or you find yourself rolling to the bottom. Either way, you usually find yourself lying in the grass, gazing up at the sky, and catching your breath for a moment.</div>
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And then you run back up the hill and try again.</div>
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<br />Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-43584016672722485952015-06-09T20:27:00.001-06:002015-06-09T20:27:24.060-06:00Join Me in the Land of Denial, Won't You?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I am so tired right now. If you suddenly see<br />
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you'll know I did a face plant into my keyboard.</div>
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Moving. </div>
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I hate moving. I've always hated it. In fact, after moving into this house twelve years ago I told Brad that he was going to have to bury me in the backyard of this house like a pet parakeet because I never ever wanted to move again.</div>
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Damn it. He beat me to the punch. But because he didn't mind moving I actually buried him someplace other than the backyard.</div>
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This move is just plain <i>hard. </i>It's bad enough to pack boxes, but this one is pretty heavy emotionally, too (I wonder if my moving company is going to charge me the extra weight for that??? Better ask). So in the last few weeks, I have done a pre-move, if you will. </div>
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Into the land of Denial.</div>
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Denial is a tricky one because I can't decide if it's actually all that bad for you. Sure, things can resurface later, but that could happen anyway. At least this way I have a little extra time to ignore what's actually going on.</div>
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One moment I'll be thinking, "My God. I can't believe I'm going to be leaving this house in just a few weeks." And then I'll do an about-face and think, "You're moving into your own space! This will be fun!"</div>
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(My denial voice sounds very much like a middle-aged cheerleader on crack.)</div>
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One moment I'll think, "We've been on this street for twelve years! Almost the kids' entire lives!" and then I'll stop myself and think, "I wonder if the next block I move to will have a tall, buff man living across the street who likes to do all of his outdoor work (including snow blowing) shirtless."</div>
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And that snaps me out of my funk.</div>
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Something that I read a while ago in Becky Aikman's <i>Saturday Night Widows </i>has stuck with me. When researching grief, someone told her that when she starts remembering sad moments, she should immediately do something that makes her happy, thereby replacing her sadness with joy.</div>
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Now, come on. That sounds a little denial-ish to me.</div>
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So, right now I'm just going to do what I need to do to get through these next few weeks. I could be selling my soul to the grief devil who will visit me around July 15th and not leave me alone until after the holidays. But at this point I'm willing to give it a try.</div>
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I'll let you know how it goes.</div>
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<i>hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh</i></div>
Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-75299809451046135532015-05-19T19:40:00.005-06:002015-05-19T19:40:54.284-06:00Sometimes I Have ToSometimes I have to remind myself to ignore the last word of the phrase "doing things alone" and encourage myself to just keep doing things.<br />
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Sometimes I have to remind myself that most of the people who give me
advice have no idea what it's like to ask, "What do you think we should
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Sometimes I have to remind myself to let go of what was so that I can embrace what could be.<br />
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Sometimes I have to remind myself that it's okay to be sad...just like I have to remind myself that it's okay to be happy.<br />
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Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am the smartest person living my life that I know.<br />
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Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-2115479109173943962015-05-08T11:43:00.000-06:002015-05-08T11:43:35.903-06:00Can I Choose to be Happy?I'm going to throw a quote out there that some of you will embrace and some of you will shun. Much like the mindset "you can choose to be happy," this one implies that a lot of how we go through life is more in our control than we think.<br />
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<i>"We have a tendency to confuse the stability of our mindsets with the stability of the world. We hold something still with our heads, believing we know it, but it's changing regardless of how we perceive it. If you can notice things changing, you'll be less gutted by change. And whether or not you feel gutted by the change won't alter the outcome - it's still happening. </i></div>
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<i>Stress is a function of the views we take of events, not of the events themselves."</i></div>
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So, I have a feeling I had many of you up until that last part. And that's okay. I mean, I think the death of a loved one is stressful no matter how you look at it. Even if you didn't like the person, that comes with certain feelings that must be dealt with. I <i>guess </i>it's possible to have so much self-awareness that you can talk yourself out of death stress (can I trademark that phrase? Hell, if Taylor Swift can try to trademark "shake it off" surely I can do it).</div>
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I've just haven't met the person who can do it.</div>
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But I do think that this can apply to many other things in life. As a personal example, I read this quote in <i>O Magazine</i> just this week when my anxiety over moving had reached its peak (at least I hope that was the peak). And it made me realize that I could either stress about this, or change my way of thinking to make this more of an exciting change. I could worry about it or embrace it.</div>
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The fact is that whether I move or not, a decision will need to be made. And I need to preserve my sanity while I make it.</div>
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I've been trying this even before I read this article. When I traveled a couple of weeks ago (which many of you know was a little scary for me), in the weeks leading up to the trip I would remind myself that this was exciting! Yes, I had to face some fears, but I was going to meet new people, see new things, and generally <i>live life</i>. That helped me so much leading up to the trip.</div>
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And then I medicated myself to get on the plane.</div>
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Yesterday was such a weird day. It started when I was making my daughter's lunch for school and my television went on all on its own. While working in my basement office, I looked up and saw a huge gray cat watching me through the window (which scared the shit out of me). I later got in my car and the radio played the song that always makes me smile and think of my husband. And just after I said, "Brad? Are you here?" my phone pinged and I got an email from my realtor saying that he had a buyer very interested in the house.</div>
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So, I took that as a yes.</div>
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The night before, I'd had a mini-meltdown at the end of which I said out loud, "I feel so alone. I wish you were here." And I'd like to believe he granted me that wish.</div>
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And last night, as I lay in my bed reading, I put my book across my chest and stared up at the ceiling.</div>
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"I think you're here," I whispered. "But I wish you were <i>really </i>here. I miss you."</div>
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I picked up what I had been using as my bookmark - the program to my kids' choir concert this week - and stopped moving when I read the cover that I hadn't noticed before.</div>
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Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-75662364759612574752015-05-04T16:07:00.001-06:002015-05-04T16:07:22.742-06:00Is Knowing Half the Battle?I hope I get this blog right. I had a brilliant idea as I was putting on my make-up and then lost about half of it when I was drying my hair.<br />
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So, here goes.<br />
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I was thinking about all that I'd been through with this pesky anxiety business. Now, I know I wrote about it months ago, but around this time last year, I became dangerously close to being housebound. I couldn't sit in a restaurant. A short ride in the car made me dizzy and nauseous and if there happened to be traffic...forget about it. Sitting in a movie theater was a struggle. <br />
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Really. This was not a good moment for me.<br />
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I tried everything I could last year to treat it "organically" only to cycle around again during the holidays and have one of the worst bouts of anxiety I'd ever had. Seriously. I wanted to write Amazon a thank you note because without them, my kids wouldn't have had any presents.<br />
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I didn't give up, but I went a different direction. I finally got on some medication that changed where I was headed. And where I was headed was a very scary place.<br />
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As I've written before, this probably started a long time ago but peaked last year just as <i>Confessions of a Mediocre Widow</i> was released. And after my last book signing in Houston - where I sweated and shook through my speech and then almost had a nervous breakdown on the plane ride home - my life completely changed.<br />
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A few months ago, I was asked to speak at an education foundation fundraiser in Portland, OR and I cautiously agreed, thinking that this would be a good goal for me. I thought I had six months to get myself together and that should be plenty of time.<br />
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But let me tell you...that plane ride and speaking engagement loomed before me and caused many a sleepless night.<br />
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So, two weeks ago, I boarded a plane, gave a speech, and then got back on a plane to come home. I know to many of you this doesn't sound like much, but for me it was like ripping off a big band-aid. In a good way.<br />
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If you happened to be in the Denver International Airport parking lot on Friday April 24th, I was the woman sitting in her car, grinning like and idiot and saying, "I'm proud of you" to the rearview mirror.<br />
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As I was putting on my make-up this morning, I was thinking about these last couple of weeks and how much better I feel. I confronted the beast and I conquered it. If someone asked me to fly somewhere tomorrow, I now have my most recent positive experience to draw from...rather than all of the negative ones from last year.<br />
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I think that's true for a lot of what I've been through. When I think about my husband's birthdays that my kids and I have celebrated...they weren't "awesome" but we were okay. We got through them. I've had seven Christmases without him and I'm still here - mainly because I know that I can do it. I know that there will still be unexpected things that come up, but I can remind myself that unexpected things have <i>always </i>come up. <br />
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And I'm still here.<br />
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I think I've posted this picture before, but I love it so I'm going to post it again. I'm just so darn proud of ALL of us.<br />
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Well, it's that time of year again. One of the many moments that we widows dread; the one that makes us want to bury our heads in the sands of widowhood until it passes.<br />
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The Father/Daughter Dance.<br />
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I'm trying to remember if I've been through this before and I don't think I have. I have one older daughter, but if I remember correctly, the Father/Daughter Dance passed without a mention. Now that I think about it, I'm wondering if I missed the opportunity to talk to her about something that could have been bothering her.<br />
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Then again, maybe she just didn't want to go.<br />
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But my youngest, who is all about dressing up and attending any special event that might come her way, has been up on this Father/Daughter Dance since the moment it was mentioned during her Student Council meeting months ago. And from that meeting on, she has asked me the question that most daughters ask their mothers when their fathers are no longer present.<br />
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"Who's going to take me?"<br />
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When she asked that question, I rattled off many suggestions just to assure her that we would have men lining up to take her if I asked. But I knew that the one person who would be at the top of our list would be her grandfather who would not look at this as a chore, but as an honor.<br />
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My youngest, who was 18-months-old when her dad died, is full of questions like these. Things like "who is going to walk me down the aisle?" are discussions we have often, so I know that the fact that she doesn't have a dad is something that weighs on her in her own little way. <br />
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As parents, you know...this breaks your heart a little each time.<br />
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Today I went to Target to get a few things and spied a dress that I was sure she would love to wear to the dance. I plopped it in my cart and then wound through the store until I got to the shoe department. I looked at all of the sandals on display and picked up a pair I was sure she would like.<br />
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And then I hesitated.<br />
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The shoes were $30, which I know doesn't sound like much, but when you know they'll probably only wear them once, it's hard to part with the money. I was <i>this close </i>to putting them back when I stopped.<br />
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<i>This child has no father to take her to the Father/Daughter Dance. Am I really not going to buy her a pair of shoes?</i><br />
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Seriously.<br />
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I put them in my cart and didn't blink when the cashier rang them up. In fact, at that point, if I could have gone to Saks Fifth Avenue to buy her an entire outfit, I probably would have.<br />
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My dad has jokingly said that he is going to show up at the house with his tux on. I have already arranged for her to get a rose when she gets to the dance, along with the fine meal that they are serving (your choice of pepperoni, cheese, or sausage pizza).<br />
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And, if I can be honest, I'm really okay with it. I mean, I really miss Brad and wish he could be here to take her, but I know that my dad will value this memory (and she will always remember her grandfather taking her to the dance) and that makes me incredibly happy.<br />
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Especially when my daughter let me in on a little surprise for her grandfather once they get there.<br />
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"I've been practicing the Tango."Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-55828033144885382432015-04-06T13:26:00.001-06:002015-04-06T13:26:53.431-06:00I WANNA GO HOMEI have a cold. And I'm cranky. I'm sitting at the library because my house is being shown and there's a guy sitting right next to me who WON'T SHUT UP as I try to write a speech.<br />
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Maybe I should sneeze on him.<br />
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I haven't been sick for an entire year and in the last couple of weeks I've endured the stomach bug from hell and this cold that my sister keeps telling me is allergies and I assure you IT'S NOT.<br />
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Sorry. Cranky.<br />
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My realtor told me that it's because I've been under a lot of stress lately which is probably true. That and I live in a house with three school-age children and therefore we are a petri dish of whatever the schools might be passing around that particular week.<br />
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Anyway, I know I'm stressed. Actually, I'm feeling quite lost right now.<br />
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Last night I was journaling about everything that's going on and I realized something. I know that leaving my house - the house that my husband and I bought together - will be difficult, but I can feel myself making peace with it. It's like a long break-up process where I'm trying to reconcile my feelings for the ex before I move on to the new guy.<br />
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If that makes any sense. Keep in mind this could just be the antihistamines talking.<br />
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I've always been a homemaker - even when I worked full-time. My home is my haven and I would choose to be there over almost anyplace else in the world. In fact, last year when my kids were at camp for two weeks, I didn't even go anywhere. I just stayed home.<br />
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It was bliss.<br />
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As I was writing last night, I realized that part of what's so hard right now is not just that I'm breaking up with my house, but also that I'm unsure about my new relationship because I don't know where I'm going. I'm in this weird in-between place where I don't have a firm grasp on where home is or is going to be.<br />
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And for a homebody like me...that really sucks. <br />
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I just have this feeling of floating through my life right now (antihistamines?) and not being grounded the way I like to be. I know that home will be wherever the kids and I make it, but it takes time to fully commit and breathe that sigh of relief when you walk in the door. And I want that NOW.<br />
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And, Brad, if you're reading this...stop making lightbulbs burn out at the house right before I have a showing. If you have something to say then just say it and stop being so damn passive-aggressive.<br />
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Geez.Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-78832141807232363702015-03-31T13:59:00.001-06:002015-03-31T13:59:49.467-06:00Trying to be a Rock and Feeling More like a Puddle<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I'm having one of those days when I truly hate being a grown-up. And I know this is something that every parent goes through, widowed or not.<br />
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We're just having a bad family day - my oldest is sick, we're trying to get our house ready to put on the market this week, and we just had to take a very sweet cat back to the pound (I won't go into detail on that one, but the pet gods know that we did our best).<br />
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We're all just down.<br />
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I don't mind showing emotion in front of my kids. Last night, when my oldest started crying about getting rid of the cat, I cried right along with her. It's okay to be sad.<br />
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But there is that parental instinct that makes us feel like we have to be the strong ones, too. My youngest has been cranky all day and while I know that it's because we're in the middle of a huge transition and I need to be patient with her, part of me wants to leave them all here so I can go my own mother's house and bawl my eyes out while she's strong for <i>me.</i><br />
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After all, I'm still someone's kid. Right?<br />
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<i> </i>There is just so much a person can take before she sits down on her bed and starts to wail. Unfortunately, I have a sick kid in mine at the moment so that's going to have to wait.<br />
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I just don't want to be strong the rest of the day. I want to be the one who's comforted while I get all of the sadness, crankiness, and general unease out of my body. I want to beg my kids to change places with me for a little while and be the emotional wreck that eventually sends them into therapy.<br />
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I don't want to be me for the rest of the day. <br />
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Do you think my mom will write me a note?Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-18791508854144373432015-03-10T10:25:00.000-06:002015-03-10T10:25:09.013-06:00Packing and Purging: Do Normal People Cry Over Old Phone Bills?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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In the last few weeks, I've been dealing with what a lot of you have already been through: the ordeal of packing up my house and getting it ready to sell.<br />
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I've been in the fortunate position these last seven years of not being forced to leave and being able to make this choice when it's the right time. And it is the right time - in many ways, I'm ready for a new chapter and to not be in a house that has always been ours. It's time to move into a space that is mine, a home where I can see myself raising my kids and being comfortable in after they've left the nest.<br />
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But.<br />
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It's a process. Throughout the last seven years, I've done a lot of purging and packing, trying to slowly move myself forward. And again, I've been fortunate that I've been able to do this on my own timeline and not anyone else's. <br />
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So, when I started the major purging last week, I braced myself every morning for what I might find. The work was exhausting, not just because it was so physical, but it took an emotional toll as well (which was probably worse). And for the most part, I did okay. I already knew that I was ready to get rid of our oh-so-classy college shot glass collection (yes, I did keep a few for shooter emergencies) and I can't say I was all that teary when I packed up a huge skull beer mug that we got when we were in Vegas.<br />
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It was silly stuff - or what would be silly stuff to other people. My hands shook when I found an old phone bill of Brad's from college, meaningless paperwork to someone else but it was part of his life. Who did he talk to? Was it me? And then remembering how hard we had to work to talk to each other during the time of long distance calls and shared dormitory phones. Was that during this life or a previous one? It's hard to tell sometimes.<br />
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His old report cards from the Air Force Academy.<br />
An expense report from a business trip.<br />
A small photo album that had his friends' senior pictures in it.<br />
Photos of him and his high school girlfriend (okay, that I could part with pretty easily).<br />
Don't get me started on his tools. AGAIN.<br />
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All of these little things. Junk to some, but found treasure to me. <br />
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I think it hit me on about Day Three of packing - I was digging deep in the back of my desk drawer and I found an old Valentine's Day card. The tears began to fall and didn't stop the rest of the day. I cried at the gas station. I cried in the bathroom. I cried just about any moment I stood still and sniffled when I wasn't crying. It was one of those good ones, you know? When you just know you're getting stuff out that needs to come out. It just came and came, not in a sob, but a good solid cry.<br />
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And that's okay.<br />
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My therapist asked me the other day what I can do through this process to honor Brad and still move forward. And I knew what she meant, but I didn't really have an answer for her. The kids and I went through a lot together and they helped me figure out what they thought was worth keeping and what they didn't. I needed that because a lot of what I keep is for them, so they'll know their dad.<br />
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Anyway, I've been thinking about my therapist's question this last week and the truth is that there is no hard and fast way that I can honor Brad through this process, mainly because I feel like I honor him by how I live every day. And I think he would understand why I'm making this move and that I'm not leaving one of piece of him behind - he's coming with me in this life wherever I go.<br />
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Still....<br />
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I'm sorry we couldn't be together, too.Widow Chickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15830496557976820633noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1410599077591449670.post-22017480156150462892015-02-19T10:58:00.001-07:002015-02-19T10:58:22.481-07:00Mourning What We Should Be Mourning Together<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Yesterday I had to go to Babies R Us to find a gift for a friend of mine who very selflessly got pregnant so that she could prove to all of us who are the same age that we're still young and fertile (that's not really why she got pregnant, but that's how I choose to look at it. So thank you, Tiffany).<br />
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My initial thought when I parked my car and started walking toward the door was, "Lord, I hope no one asks me when I'm due. I'd hate to tell them nine years ago."<br />
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Luckily, that didn't happen. I think it was because I was wearing my skinny yoga pants yesterday and not my fat ones.<br />
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Anyway, as many of you have probably experienced, I had one of those gut-check moments that I wasn't expecting when I walked in the door. I hadn't thought about it beforehand, but it had been years since I had been inside that store. And I immediately started having flashbacks.<br />
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As I walked the aisles that were instantly familiar, I couldn't help but think about thirteen years earlier when Brad and I were there together, armed with a list of suggested registry items for our own little bundle of joy.<br />
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"<i>Seven strollers?</i>" he said in disbelief. "Who in the hell would buy seven strollers for one kid?" <br />
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"Huh?" I said, bending over to look at the breast pump that looked like some sort of torture device, positive that there was <i>no way</i> I was hooking that contraption up to one of the most sensitive parts of my body.<br />
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"What's this bathtub thing?" he went on, looking at the list. "Don't we just bathe it in the sink?"<br />
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"I don't know," I said, moving on to the breast pads that some delighted-looking woman on the package was putting into her bra. "What are <i>these </i>for?"<br />
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Of course, in the end we ended up with all seven strollers, not because we registered for them but because we had to buy them ourselves which made us <i>wish</i> we had registered for them (yes, you do need an umbrella stroller, regular stroller, jogging stroller, eventually a double jogging stroller and an extra regular stroller to put in the other car). And I ended up not only hooking myself up to the torture device, but also giving it a little hug the first night I had pumped enough milk to go out to Happy Hour with my friends (thereby needing the breast pads).<br />
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The point is that in that moment, I so wished that I could go home and tell Brad all about it and remember that time with him.<br />
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One of the hardest realizations about widowhood that I had early on had to do with the kids. I was going through one of their baby albums (actually it must have been my oldest because the other two don't have one) and thought, "No one is going to have those memories of early parenting except me. I don't have anyone to talk to about when each of them was born and say, 'Remember when...?' and they'll know what I'm talking about."<br />
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I don't feel that way every day, but it does still hit me every once in a while. This time, it was the excitement of it all, expecting our first baby, and remembering what a special time that was.<br />
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Whether Brad is here or not (he's not, by the way), I'd still be mourning the passing of that time, when little fingers curled around one of yours and you knew how to hold that tiny person just right because they were <i>yours</i>. The difference is that I wish he could be here to feel nostalgic with me - to feel a little sad that that time in our lives is gone.<br />
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This is wishful thinking, of course. Not just because he's gone but because in reality if I'd come home and said wistfully, "Remember when...?" he would have probably answered with, "Remember diapers? Remember a car that was so sticky we decided to sell it rather than clean it? Remember our kid throwing his pacifier across a crowded restaurant and beaning someone in the head with it?"<br />
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He'd be right, of course. The blessing and the curse of life is that time never stands still. The kids are older and two out of three of them are too big for my lap. I can no longer cuddle up with them and give them a bottle (well, I guess I could but that would be weird), but they all know how to cut their own meat, which is a plus. Our time together is different, but the best part is that now I have kids who are old enough to appreciate new memories with me. <br />
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And now I know to never take for granted the moment when one of them says, "Hey, Mom. Remember when we...?" so we can share it together.<br />
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